will be backpacking forever with my friends around the world, leave a message.


(if you couldn't tell, my backpacking trip was the most brilliant thing ever).

"I'm sorry we couldn't have breakfast before I left
I hope that the meeting went well
I miss your smile and I miss your company
I'm thinking of you on the train and I'm thinking about you when I'm busy
I like you so much
I like the jumpers you wear
I like your teeth
And I like it when you cut your hair
I like getting drunk on Rose
Dark chocolate, roast dinners
Number one would be indulgence
Sending postcards, drawing pictures
Always remembering
Falling over, banging heads
Holes in both our tights
Bruises, both late
I forget but you always remember
Perfume fresh
Wooden floorboards
Wardrobes, charity shops and tube stops
Sisters, fights, tears and thoughts about the future
But lets stick to the present
Like sellotape wrapped up so tight
I love thinking about you
I've never laughed so hard
Felt so good, like a child
As free as a bird, a naked one
Spray me with the hose when it's too hot in the summer
Sweaty, clammy hands
Holding hands
So much crap in my bag
Too many things but we love keeping things
Letters, pictures, ripped out from magazines
Photos, memories, broken bits of jewelry
I'm convinced that one day I will make this into something cool
Makeup, dress-up
Tear and run down my face
Over my body, through my veins
Make my hair stand on ends
Give me goosebumps, confidence
A secret, I feel safe and warm and I don't want to leave because
I'm back to when I was seven years old
Covered in glitter and smooth lines
Scratch, jump, run, fall and we're back up
Bread, I love eating bread
I love when you draw something and it's not dead
It moves off the page and round people's minds
You make other people laugh
But everything you do could make me cry
I want to feel, be, live, breathe, touch, see, fall, eat
Make glue, rip do, I want to be with you
I haven't time for anybody else
I don't wanna be with them
I wanna move to our house in a field
Just tell me when and I'll be there
I'd drop everything for you
You are my best friend
I don't even have a boyfriend
My mind is occupied
My buzz is rocket high
Above the moon and back again
Who I love is you
You are the most unpretentious
The most fun, most exciting
I want to spend most of my time with you
Because you are the most worthwhile
You are the most cute, clever, and stupid
Hungry, energetic, passionate, scared, interesting
Like a film, made up person
I want to drink cream, eat chocolate
Get that nice surprise when the butter is un-salted
Eat salt out of the packet
Scream till I am blue in the face
Meet French people, go to the pictures
Show you my cobbled streets
Meet everybody that you could ever meet
Just so that they know that you are my best friend
And that you belong to me
Yeah, I know you think she's cute and funny
But er, actually she is not an I, she is a we
A united nation of absolute nonsense
A community, neighborhood watch
Fire station, theme park, space, time and energy
Talent, beauty, my best friend
They don't love you like I love you
The End."

I don't really have a concrete stand on the US presidential election, but I'm prone to go to Obama's side. From what I've read a few months back, he isn't really willing to keep the war going, whilst McCain is. If things were simple as that I'd vote Obama if I were american.
But, as I am completely unaware of every other stand regarding economics and other things, I'll say I'm not defending both. The US economics is turning our economics upside down, and, like it or not, the US pollutes the world more than any country in the world.
I'm hoping that americans made the best decision for the world today. It seems hard to choose, though, when you have just two options. Even if our politics is a joke, at least that is better (and the voting machine!).

LOL the locket's pretty laaaaaaaaame.

AND OH, THE DIARY LOOKS LIKE A VAGINA!

PS: I watched December Boys the other day, and the only thing I can say is HAHAHA OMG DANRAD RUNNING IS PROBABLY THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING I'VE EVER SEEN.

PS2: forgive the craziness. I'm tired.

PS3: PUSHING DAISIES TODAYYYYYYYYY

( So, Dad's probably moving to a city on the other side of the country. )
On a more cheerier note, I decided I'm going to Machu Picchu, fuck that stupid internship. Really, it's like being a fucking robot. I'm telling my boss that I already had everything booked even before I was accepted and I'm going, whether they like it or not. If they decide I can keep doing my internship there, it's better, but if they decide I'm done then I'm ok with it, too.

I'll put our itinerary up one of these days. I'm hoping the situation in Bolivia is settled before we go backpacking with a thousand dollars on our pockets, though. I don't even know what's really happening, because I haven't been reading the news lately, but still.

Well, here's something even more stupid:

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.

I just put a bigger ear plug on my ear - I was wearing a 4mm and I stuffed a 6mm. It's hurting like a bitch and my mom disapproves like hell, which makes the pain ok. It looks cool, now and I'm going to stick to 6mm, because otherwise is ridiculous.

On another, more serious, note, I just watched "Invisible Children - Sunday, the story of a displaced child". The whole situation just reminded me of the favelas here in Brazil. Still, people here are a little bit better. A little.
That stuff from City of God and Elite Squad? That is real, favelas are really like that. I know it because, beside the fact that my college is located just beside my city's hugest favela, I went inside once when I was doing charity job.
At least there isn't any wars and kid soldiers around (though there are kids involved with drug dealing).

I'm sad about the Olympics coming to an end, I didn't even saw the closing ceremony.

Congrats to Maurren Maggi who won by a centimeter (A CENTIMETER!!), I was ridiculously nervous when the Russian girl jumped her last jump! And congrats to the girls who won the Volleyball, a game I didn't really saw until the last set because I was in class - then me and my friend, who used to play  volley with me, went to the college's cafeteria and watched with everyone there, all the while amazed with Mari's strength. I wouldn't want to defend any balls that girl attacked.

The boys really disappointed me, though. As I said to annamel, I was pretty sure Marcio and Fábio Luiz were going to beat Rogers and Dalhausser, but Fábio kept missing points and that Rogers guy had one of the best techniques I ever saw in beach volley.

Yesterday I went out and came home early just to watch Brazil play against USA. I think what broke them was the beginning of the second set. They, too, missed a lot of stupid points, but USA was really the best team. I mean, they were blocking every other attack.

And, as we're speaking volleyball, I'll use it as excuse to post my shitty cellphone photo with Giba. He's the son of my uncle-by-marriage's cousin, and attended to a dinner party my other uncle had for his son. (Though we're all related, because my uncle-by-marriage is actually my aunt's twice removed cousin). So of course I had to take a picture with my him and of course my mother didn't know how to use my cellphone, so Giba's wife appeared in the photo.



When my mother took the picture, I turned to congratulate him for winning the Pan American games (this was a month after the Pan American games) and I held his biceps and went O__O. Honestly, it was like I was holding a metal bar. Then he thanked me and kept taking one gazillion pictures with everyone. He was really polite about it, though, even if he spent the majority of the dinner being bugged by reporters and stupid fan girls like me.

I swear, the Olympics are worse than drugs. I'm sleeping 4-5 hours per day because I stay up watching it and waking up early to keep watching.

Elena Isinbayeva just jumped over 5,05m :O And the Chinese lost Fabiana Murer pole. Not that she'd beat Isinbayeva, but still. Shame on you Chinese people.

Anyway, Brazil's been pretty depressing. Fist Jade Barbosa sucked in both her best presentations (vault and floor) and then Diego Hypolito messed up a perfect presentation in the floor in the last landing. I can't imagine how he felt - the video is available everywhere, just look at his face when he falls, it seems like he's going to collapse right there.

But STILL! We're ruling on volleyball. Both male teams in the beach won the quarterfinals today and Brazil kicked some german ass indoor. The girls are doing great, too. I used to play volley (actually, I used to practice a lot of sports - judo, taekwondo, volleyball, handball, football, etc) and I'm addicted to watching it.

... and there was much rejoicing.

Just begun a new internship in an advocacy office that deals with intellectual property and I learned three things (so productive):

- Law sucks.
- Intellectual property sucks.
- I'll have 20 days off at Christmas/New Year, and while it's a good thing it also sucks because we were planning to go to Machu Picchu in the beginning of January. So I can't go if a miracle happens or I quit (which would be retarded, since I have an opportunity to get actually hired). I mean, we have it all planned out, it involves backpacking through Bolivia and Peru and sleeping inside coaches instead of hotels/hostels and we even have prices and stuff and I was already saving some money and....


... and now I think I'm gonna cry. I hate being all grown up and having to think about the fucking future. It sucks.